Gone, gone, gone
Gone with the wind
No more
What should have beens
Or could have beens
Don’t let the regrets sink in
Learn in the midst
Of letting go
Of what wasn’t supposed to be
Allow yourself to heal
Allow yourself to be free
Pain and regret do not come from the God
Guilt robs your soul and peace of mind
So let it go
Allow yourself to heal
Allow yourself to be free
Trust in the process
The wind will carry you over
To the other side where you were meant
To prune and grow
The process is humbling but let it go
And know that you are valid, you are loved,
And you were made for so much more
Tag: worship
I love You, God
I’m feeling so much peace tonight… the kind of peace that isn’t a mere emotion or absence of chaos, but the presence of God just being filled in and all around me. I haven’t felt this in a long time. My heart is so full of love, it’s like an overflowing cup. This takes me back to the nights and times of prayer when I was so overwhelmed with tears of joy from the Lord.
I felt pain, hurt, shame, and grief but God is faithful to take all that negativity away. Like every storm that passes through life, God breaks off the heavy chains and brings His light in the darkness. He comes to my rescue and He saves me!
God opened up my eyes. He told me, “I’m here. I’ve always been here all along for you. I never left and I will never leave you. I love you, my dear child.”
I love You, God. I love You, God. I love You, God.
Lord, when my heart is broken and torn, I trust that You will pick up and patch the broken pieces. You will fix my heart and make it a brand new form of life again. Although I am hurting in pain right now, I trust that You can heal and mend all things- because you came to the earth to seek and save the lost, heal the sick, bless the cursed, and strengthen the weak. You came for those who need You and call Your name. Lord, I trust You with my fragile heart. I know You will bring me back together and make me whole again.
Loving God isn’t just an emotion or spur of the moment. It is actively choosing to put God first in your walk everyday. Putting God first is worship. There is no need for perfection. Christ died on the cross for you and me so that sin will no longer be a barrier. If you would understand the magnitude of God’s LOVE for you, you would be in awe and fear of the Lord. God is so good. Put Him first and love Him again, before every fleeting thing in the world. God is forever. This world is not.
Oh, how I love You God
Abba Father
If you can hear the silent cry of your daughter
You know where I stand in my life
Better than I
You know my place and my timing
If there’s any reason or purpose of finding
I want to know that I am obedient to Your will
That I am not my own
And I was bought by Your blood
Beyond all the heavens, earth, and stars
I know that I am truly loved
So would You stay with me as I pray?
As I ask for Your wisdom and compassion today?
Proverbs praises wisdom, that there’s no greater treasure to find
Than the fear and love of the Lord in a lifetime
My heart cries out, because I know that I deeply desire You
Above all else, there is no one greater, holier, and more true
I don’t want to give in to the fleeting ‘passions’ of this world
Dressed up in fading beauty in the false facade of pearls
Take my life, take my heart, take my youth, take all the love that I have to give
I pray that I walk righteously in all the days I live
Devotions
So to be honest, I’ve been struggling to consistently read the “read the entire bible in 1 year” plan since 2016.
This is my third attempt (haha).
I know reading God’s word daily is crucial to constantly build and maintain a growing relationship with Him. What better way is there for us to get to know our Father? I realize reading God’s word not only takes discipline (effort driven), but also constant prayer (spirit and communication driven).
A relationship is a 2 way street and so is communication. So if we want to have a flourishing relationship with Christ, we need to seek and desire Him daily.
The more I pray daily, “God please open up my heart and mind to Your word,” the easier it becomes to read it.
Side note: God named a place “Roll” in Hebrew. Isn’t that CUTE or what?!?! lol
Entering Rest
“Let us therefore strive to enter that rest, so that no one may fall by the same sort of disobedience. For the word of God is living and active, sharper than any two-edged sword, piercing to the division of soul and of spirit, of joints and of marrow, and discerning the thoughts and intentions of the heart.”
Hebrews 4:11-12 ESV
“The snares of death encompassed me; the pangs of Sheol laid hold on me; I suffered distress and anguish. Then I called on the name of the Lord: “O Lord, I pray, deliver my soul!” Gracious is the Lord, and righteous; our God is merciful. The Lord preserves the simple; when I was brought low, he saved me. Return, O my soul, to your rest; for the Lord has dealt bountifully with you. For you have delivered my soul from death, my eyes from tears, my feet from stumbling; I will walk before the Lord in the land of the living. I will lift up the cup of salvation and call on the name of the Lord.”
Psalms 116:3-9, 13 ESV
40 days and 40 nights
Can you imagine spending 40 days and 40 nights all by yourself? Can you imagine walking 40 days and 40 nights in the desert? What might run through your mind, as you trudge through barren sand, starving?
Elijah walked though it. Jesus walked through it.
Personally, I really can’t imagine what a ridiculous and dangerous journey that would be. But have you experienced emotional droughts… all by yourself? Have you ever locked yourself in your room and avoided the outside world?
If I’m sounding dark, it’s because I intend to. I’m sure at some point, we have all experienced our spiritual rock bottoms, when we can’t fall or sink any deeper. Most of the time, we hide behind smiles because we’re afraid of vulnerability.
I finally had a breakthrough. I won’t go into specifics, but God finally answered my long time prayers!! I can’t say that I finally reached the perfect place where I reached total satisfaction. That is fatal, because there will never be entire satisfaction in the world, no matter how much fame, money, and glory you obtain.
You will only find satisfaction in Christ alone. *mic drop* ❤
colorful faith
I need your help, Lord
Not to see life
In black and white
But to see everything
With color and grace
Would you lift up my heart
So my eyes would gaze
With a fiery faith
Remind me of who I am
A child born from grace
I am forgiven, unashamed
Ordained and called by name
The calm after a storm
I felt it as I called and cried out to You
Unworthy lips and a shaken voice to utter Your name
The waves died down
The winds hushed still
As every creation bows before You
I grasped my fingertips on the edges of this boat
And sighed a deep breath as I stayed afloat
No noise, hum, or note
Justly bestows the glory
That your gospel story spoke
Under the fiery, blazing sun
Casts the shadow of the cross
That stood upon
The Golgotha mount
What is gospel?
What is truth?
Who is the Messiah
Besides You?
What is anguish
And a famished heart?
Who hungers salvation
Greater than the sinner
That stands far?
The earth shakes
And trembles
All of eternity quakes
Life and death
Will never be the same
The veil torn
The curse now broken
In Jesus’ name
The prophesy fulfilled
From the holy scriptures spoken
The stone rolled away
Light broke through the darkness
Of the grave
The world will never be the same
Through holy atonement
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