Heart, body, mind, and soul

Stay guarded, stay guarded, stay guarded
Heart, body, mind, and soul
Cover yourself up, entirely and whole
Guard your emotions and guard your thoughts
Detangle confusion and loosen the knots
There’s no joke to conspire with fate
Don’t push luck when you ought to wait

Don’t arouse love until it so desires
Don’t strike up a match unless you want to burn with fire
Love is not a game, but I can sure say that lust is
Love waits, while lust gives in

Love trusts, but lust swindles from within
Love provides and is self-sacrificial
Lust takes away, is self-serving, and gives at the bare minimum

Stay guarded, stay guarded, stay guarded
Treasure your value and know your worth
Who do you choose to be with at the end of the day?
Between love and lust, which do you think will stay?
Cover yourself up, entirely and whole
Heart, body, mind, and soul


Sun & Moon

You have me going through the motions

You are the sun and I am the moon

We orbit around dawn and afternoon

Between us is the whole world, time, and space

But when the stars align in perfect place

The asymmetry eclipses the light and the dark

Polar opposites attract in harmonious spark

Who knew that the heavens would allow us to meet

And who will know tomorrow like destiny

Show me your heart and give me your hand

Write your name in the stars ‘til I see you again

Deer in the headlights

I never knew how much
Being “in love”
Can make you feel
Like deer in the headlights
There’s nowhere to hide

When you two stare into each other’s eyes
And it feels like everyone else ceases to exist in the room
Time is frozen still
All that’s left is me and you

You and I are deer in the headlights
You and I are all we see
I see you and you see me

We’re deer in the headlights
There’s nowhere to hide
When all we can see is us in our eyes
You and I are deer in the headlights

I want to know you

Stolen glances
Exchanged in moments
In the room

Yet neither one moves closer
Or acts like they’ve got a clue

Do they know each other yet?
Mini dialogue and laughter
Caught in the moment of time

Framed like a photograph
But the memory is obsolete
It’s intangible
Like nostalgia on the mind

But you catch another glance
Just one more time
And it makes you feel like
The whole world is right

Right in that moment
When I see your smiling face
You light up the hallway
And everything is okay

Is this what they call a dream?
I’m day dreaming away
To a reality unseen

But a better reality is knowing
Who you truly are
Who is the person behind that smile?
Getting to know you is just the start

Oh, how I love You God

Abba Father
If you can hear the silent cry of your daughter
You know where I stand in my life
Better than I
You know my place and my timing
If there’s any reason or purpose of finding
I want to know that I am obedient to Your will
That I am not my own
And I was bought by Your blood
Beyond all the heavens, earth, and stars
I know that I am truly loved
So would You stay with me as I pray?
As I ask for Your wisdom and compassion today?
Proverbs praises wisdom, that there’s no greater treasure to find
Than the fear and love of the Lord in a lifetime
My heart cries out, because I know that I deeply desire You
Above all else, there is no one greater, holier, and more true
I don’t want to give in to the fleeting ‘passions’ of this world
Dressed up in fading beauty in the false facade of pearls
Take my life, take my heart, take my youth, take all the love that I have to give
I pray that I walk righteously in all the days I live

Dear God, You have all of my heart

My heart breaks a little on the inside. Sometimes, life throws unexpected surprises at you and they’re not always the happy kind. If you read the story of Samson and Delilah (Judges 16), then you know how much trouble Delilah was for Samson. It came to a point where he was not only robbed of his strength, but he was taken prisoner, chained, publicly humiliated, and gouged of his eyes! Talk about a love story gone bad. But it’s not only the physical aspects that he lost… he lost the most important thing in his life: the Spirit and presence of God used to be with him… until he gave into Delilah. Then God left him. Imagine the most important thing in your life, completely gone from the grasp of your fingertips. There is serious danger in being unequally yoked.

For the longest time, I’ve been very content. I’m happy in my singleness. Then something crazy happened. A “Delilah” came along… now, I have to choose between Delilah and God. I, of course, choose God. There’s no question or competition. However, I am still human. Sometimes, choosing to do the right thing can hurt first in the moment, but I also know that if I choose to do the wrong thing, it will hurt me even more. So now, I am taking my time.

I have never been more determined in my life to stay focused on constant prayer and the reading of scripture than now. I believe God has a purpose in this situation. He is pruning me and forcing me to grow in places where it will hurt for a moment, but it will be worth it. “No pain, no gain”, right?

Because I was so content in my singleness, I was not very prayerful for my future love life, my personal growth (to become an appropriate Proverbs 31 wife), and my future spouse. But now, because there is an obstacle and temptation standing in my way (which could potentially hurt my relationship with God), I have to pray.

I am praying for my Boaz to someday come. Someday, I will be ready to be his Ruth. But until then and always, I will stay dedicated to growing my relationship with Jesus. At the end of the day, single or not, God still needs to come first. He is the most important and beloved one in my life. He deserves all my praise, worship, and obedience.



So to be honest, I’ve been struggling to consistently read the “read the entire bible in 1 year” plan since 2016.

This is my third attempt (haha).

I know reading God’s word daily is crucial to constantly build and maintain a growing relationship with Him. What better way is there for us to get to know our Father? I realize reading God’s word not only takes discipline (effort driven), but also constant prayer (spirit and communication driven).

A relationship is a 2 way street and so is communication. So if we want to have a flourishing relationship with Christ, we need to seek and desire Him daily.

The more I pray daily, “God please open up my heart and mind to Your word,” the easier it becomes to read it.

Side note: God named a place “Roll” in Hebrew. Isn’t that CUTE or what?!?! lol