My heart breaks a little on the inside. Sometimes, life throws unexpected surprises at you and they’re not always the happy kind. If you read the story of Samson and Delilah (Judges 16), then you know how much trouble Delilah was for Samson. It came to a point where he was not only robbed of his strength, but he was taken prisoner, chained, publicly humiliated, and gouged of his eyes! Talk about a love story gone bad. But it’s not only the physical aspects that he lost… he lost the most important thing in his life: the Spirit and presence of God used to be with him… until he gave into Delilah. Then God left him. Imagine the most important thing in your life, completely gone from the grasp of your fingertips. There is serious danger in being unequally yoked.
For the longest time, I’ve been very content. I’m happy in my singleness. Then something crazy happened. A “Delilah” came along… now, I have to choose between Delilah and God. I, of course, choose God. There’s no question or competition. However, I am still human. Sometimes, choosing to do the right thing can hurt first in the moment, but I also know that if I choose to do the wrong thing, it will hurt me even more. So now, I am taking my time.
I have never been more determined in my life to stay focused on constant prayer and the reading of scripture than now. I believe God has a purpose in this situation. He is pruning me and forcing me to grow in places where it will hurt for a moment, but it will be worth it. “No pain, no gain”, right?
Because I was so content in my singleness, I was not very prayerful for my future love life, my personal growth (to become an appropriate Proverbs 31 wife), and my future spouse. But now, because there is an obstacle and temptation standing in my way (which could potentially hurt my relationship with God), I have to pray.
I am praying for my Boaz to someday come. Someday, I will be ready to be his Ruth. But until then and always, I will stay dedicated to growing my relationship with Jesus. At the end of the day, single or not, God still needs to come first. He is the most important and beloved one in my life. He deserves all my praise, worship, and obedience.