Light and Darkness

Touch the moon on my toes
Feel the sun’s warmth on my skin
Miles and miles of galaxies
Behold the existence and matter
Of serenities and catastrophes

Light and darkness
Meet at the solar eclipse
And the Milky Way
Flows sweeter
Than the words on my lips

The stars illuminate
Brighter than the bare eyes can see
If we could stare
We’d be blinded
By the beauty and starry beams

Telescopes and rocket ships
Mediate between
Earth’s creation and galactic mysteries
To touch, feel, and know beyond what is seen
Is what we dreamers will always dream

8 years…

I hadn’t realized that it has been 8 years since I’ve known you
I hadn’t realized that it has been 7 years since I last saw you
Bumped into you last year
Bumped into you this year
Perhaps it’s because your name is common
That I see it everywhere I gaze

I find it funny
For you to circle my mind
And chase my train of thought
They say God works in mysterious ways
Well, so does this life

I realize that I am shy and timid
I am far from brave
I hope that you are doing well though
Keep doing well
May God bless you wherever you go
And wherever He leads you

I’m far too shy for small talk
I’m too scared to reach out
Maybe because I am no stranger
To rejection

This may (just) be a friendship
I will regret not pursuing
And if small talk is all there is
I have nothing to lose

But I hide behind every excuse
As if it’s better for me not to say a word
I’m too busy, not this time
I’m fine

Is it such a coincidence
That I see your name
Everywhere I gaze?

The most common thing that
I regret most in my life
Is to feel at all

And to suddenly want to connect
With someone who
I lost touch with all these years

Be well, brother
Be well
God bless you
Wherever you go

Have a Good Summer Too

You are a mystery
A long lost puzzle piece
That goes with this board game
Called life
You are as intricate as
A garden maze

I wish I could decipher
Your mind like Morse code
And speak the language
That you breathe
But I can’t find the door to
Your mind and heart
You are a mystery
That I wish to open and discover
The day that you came into my life
As one of the world’s seven wonders

I am no detective
Or investigator
But I am a dreamer
So I will ponder of your mystery
Your mystery does not frustrate me
But makes me smile
So long for now…
I hope that you
Have a good summer too

Take Me Into Your Ark

My tears rain faster
Than the world’s 40 day flood
I am drenched
In my agony
Deeper than the sea

The desert land
Fill up an ocean
That drowns
The salty sand

I will not survive
The flood
Without the ark
That God had built
Through his servant
And planned
There is no escape for me
No disembark
To flee the flood

I’ve got a plank
But no back up plan
I won’t stay afloat and
I can’t hold on any longer
With the tides pushing stronger

Will you save me?
Will you take me into the ark?
Will you take me into your arms?
I’m drowning and I’m weak
I need your support
I need your saving

You, creator of creation
Whose voice and hands
Send down the rain
Can you deliver me from my pain?

My brain torments me both day and night
I am flooded by my own troubling mind
Rescue me
Take me into your ark
Save me from the blinding dark
Take me into your arms
Save me forever, God

The calm after a storm

I felt it as I called and cried out to You
Unworthy lips and a shaken voice to utter Your name
The waves died down
The winds hushed still

As every creation bows before You

I grasped my fingertips on the edges of this boat
And sighed a deep breath as I stayed afloat
No noise, hum, or note
Justly bestows the glory

That your gospel story spoke

Under the fiery, blazing sun
Casts the shadow of the cross
That stood upon
The Golgotha mount

What is gospel?

What is truth?
Who is the Messiah
Besides You?
What is anguish
And a famished heart?
Who hungers salvation
Greater than the sinner
That stands far?

The earth shakes

And trembles
All of eternity quakes
Life and death
Will never be the same

The veil torn
The curse now broken
In Jesus’ name

The prophesy fulfilled
From the holy scriptures spoken

The stone rolled away

Light broke through the darkness
Of the grave
The world will never be the same
Through holy atonement

He is risen, indeed
Holy is the Lord
In Jesus’ name

He Is Risen!

Easter will always be more than just an annual holiday for me. Easter goes deeper beyond the Easter egg hunt and bunnies (although they’re very irrelevant lol). Easter… just like Christmas comes by yearly and marks a significant reminder for my soul. As someone who struggles with depression… it’s a daily tackle to remind myself the JOY that comes in the gospel (the story of Jesus).

A Muslim friend asked me yesterday, “Easter is tomorrow! Are you excited?” I was taken aback by her question. She acknowledged that this is indeed an exciting time, yet I lost my enthusiasm overtime.

To think that God came down in human form, empathetically walked my shoes in human life, and paid the ultimate sacrifice right on the cross… is something I always need to process the depths of everyday (If you want to discuss this or have questions about life and God, message me. I’d love to talk!). I never deserved this grace. I could never work for it or earn it. This is God’s love.

I think I’m honestly just experiencing a dry season right now. Life is messy. Senior year is stressful. All the more, I need to rely on God. I only share this because it’s unhealthy to bottle it in and we are to boast in our weaknesses (2 Cor 12:9).

I NEED daily reminders to process it in my head… that God loves me… that Jesus lived an exceptional example, died on the cross, and resurrected 3 days after for me and YOU. God is so gracious.

I encourage and implore you: don’t give up on faith. If you feel like you have nothing left to hold on to, God is still holding on to you. If you cannot feel Him, I PROMISE you that He is still there! In the gospel, when the disciples mourned for Jesus’s death, they walked on the road to Emmaus. They were so troubled, they could not recognize Jesus walking by their side ’til they sat down at the table and broke bread! (Luke 24) I promise you, God will never give up on you. The gospel is alive and well and Christianity exists today because Jesus lives and has risen. No matter what Easter means to you, I hope that you will never miss out on the gospel, the greatest love story of all time, and the greatest news you’ll ever hear!

Jesus is risen! He is risen, indeed!